Once upon a donkey.  A slightly silly Christmas tale

Once upon a time
There was a donkey foal
He frolicked with his mama
The best a donkey could
If horses legs were limber
A donkeys felt like wood.
A clumsy boy with great big ears
He was happy as could be
But living in a stable
He was never really free
The human who cared for him
Seemed an okay guy
But he never really smiled
And the donkey wondered why
(Maybe the smelly sty?)
Now the stars, thought the donkey
Those are happy beings!
They shone so high in the night sky
He was sure they must have wings
One night in the manger
He heard a baby cry
He'd  never heard that sound before

He looked up to the sky
One of the stars he saw
Was shining very bright
Brighter than any other star
He had seen that night.
That stars REALLY happy,  mama
The little foal exclaimed
Why is it so happy?
Its brighter than a flame
Then his mama told him
Thats the messenger star
Its message is a baby
That came from very far
THAT tiny baby?
The little donkey asked her
Hes not that exciting
He doesn't even have fur.
Thats a very important baby
His mama said with a smile
He has a very important message
That will travel many miles
Speaking of travel,  look mom, he said
A bunch of guys with sheep at their side
Have come to the babies bed
Now THESE are happy humans
The little donkey thought
Why are the so happy
But the inn keeper is really not?
These humans have heard the message
They have seen the star
They have felt the hope
Of Jesus in their hearts!
Who is Jesus?
The little donkey asked
That is baby Jesus
That they all have come to visit.
Mama,  why is the inn keeper not here
To come and see this infant?
He was not aware
That this baby boy
Is more than just a baby
But a source of eternal Joy
Hes seen a lot of babies
Thought this one was just the same
He was not aware of
The reason that he came.
Where are the shepherds going
The foal asked.
To go and tell their friends
Of the hope this baby carries
And the promise that never ends
Mama,  can we follow them?
He looked up with hopeful eyes
Mama donkey looked at him
A little bit surprised.
Sure!  She answered
I will follow too
These shepherds have an important job
There is so much to do
Look daddy! A donkey!
The shepherds young son said
No kidding! Said the shepherd
Scratching the mamas head
He hopped on her back
His son asked may i ride
This little colt right here
And travel by your side?
Of course replied the shepherd
We have a long journey tonight
How will we get there?
The children asked
The mama donkey and shepherd replied
Follow that stars bright light!

A woman with a promised given
Grappling with the words of heaven
Blessed is he
A journey to escape a fate
Dodging accusations kissed with hate
Blessed is he
An urgent night nowhere to turn
A sleepy town, fires burn
Blessed is he
New life is breathed among the dust
All alone n9 one to trust
Blessed is he
The least among to visit first
Blessed is he who thirsts
Blessed is he who waits today
For favor to look his way
Blessed is he who will embrace
The birth that bore the worlds disgrace
The life that bore the wounds of sin
The life ejected from that inn
The life that gives new life to those
Who cast their crowns and freely chose
The life that many will despise
Blessed is he
In Heaven's eyes

Pound for pound

The disease stole everything 

Its probably not the 1st thing i want to say 

Lest i let the morbid

Push itself in the way

But the disease stole everything 

Everything went wrong

But step by step I was reminded

That my life is still a song

Its a saga tickled with suspense 

The frightening pendulum between 

Desire and common sense 

Was the story of my life

That moment when you cry out

For just one moment to feel right 

Beauty was my wrapping paper

Ambition my reserve

The reality that i was lacking 

The slightest hint of nerve

I never wanted to be rescued

It seemed too far away

A series of successful 

Healthy peaceful days

Life runs in waves of motion

In the middle of a round

Of neverending emotion 

Something else was found

An unfolding of undoing

Of damage thru the years

Instead of pounds for once

I shed triumphant tears

I am not a healer 

Healing has taken place 

In the form of tongues licking 

Tears from my face

Day by day theres

Progress

Progression paves the way

For new beginnings 

Renewed every day.

Different

There is unique
And there's different.
DNA is unique
Different is courage
Different is fear expressed
Reserve undressed
Exposed a mess
Unique is colors
Different is....uncovered
Different is a defect
The doctor just discovered
Different is a diagnosis
A passive agressive way of saying
You suck.
Different pushes back on societies social cues
When it doesn't mean to
Different didn't mean to ruin it-for you
Different is speaking out of turn
Unique is a new trendy outfit
Unique is acceptably beautiful
Different just crapped on all of it
Different isn't intentional
About being bad or rude
Different runs much deeper
Than an indifferent attitude
Different is embedded
Its a jewel deep inside
Different undresses
Everyone's attempt at pride

I kinda like her
An ode to hot messes everywhere

She has no class
Is always late
Her number 1 emotion is irate
....i kinda like her
He has no joy
Hes full of cr--
He'll pull you into his perpetual trap if....
I kinda like him
His policies suck
He hates the poor
Thinks every woman is a whore
I kinda like him.
She's extreme alt left
Her lifes a mess
She can't shut up
I kinda like her
Hippy freak
Pot smoking miscrient
Good for nothing
Devil sent.....
I kinda like her
Prudish wench
She has no fun
Turns up her nose at everyone
Can't stand the witch
She's such a.....
I kinda like her
Someone has words to say about you
They may or may not be true
Let em say what they want to say
I kinda like you,  anyway 💜

Star shaped leaves
float from the trees
slow motion accentuating-gravity
we are made of stars
and water
each moment a heartbeat closer
to happy ever after.
Kissed by tears and laughter
messy blessy life
every moment like a marathon
every heartbeat marches on
the wind whips the earth
ground squeezes closer
the seasons turn
there are no losers
only searchers
pilgrims of the new day
We are raw and new and sometimes scared
yet we make our way.
Fighting fate
accepting the answer
discovering what was always within
discovering the courage to begin
childish footsteps reach to understand
facing a new season
with outstretched hands.

It amazes me
How many times people are wrong in the world
Yet wisdom and righteousness still stands like a motionless statue
Tall erect unflinching.
Beautiful in its certainty
Unmoved by animosity.
Im not always correct
Im not always wise
But who I am
Today,  tomorrow and the next day
Is legitimately legit
And that won't quit
So take the inch of me
That you think you understand
And pick it apart with a microscope
Piece by piece with your hands.
Go ahead and undo what was done
Declare yourself right
Ill turn around indignant
Go on with my life.

No
No?????
My eyes raise
Because that answer. .....
Just ruined my day!
No is not a blessing
Nor is it a win
No is the response
Causing me to sin
In 5..4..3..2..1-& done
Feeling my spirit crumble
I roll my eyes and raise my head.
Aware that i should probably
Stop and listen instead
Maybe this " no" nonsense
Is not nonsensical at all
Perhaps it is the prevention
Of my impending fall
Consider it pure joy?
But the trials never end
How on earth can I consider
Adversity a friend? ??
It says to ask for wisdom
I look up to the skies
How long have you considered yourself
Wise in your own eyes?
Astounded by the question
Churning in my soul
Aware of so much garbage
I need to let go.
The least is the greatest
At least Im bible great!
But why don't I feel ready
To rejoice and celebrate?
Wordly worth is lovely
Though only for awhile
If you wake up and you make up
Put on a fake smile
True worth and greatness
Lies deep within the soul
Embracing authentic wisdom
Letting the rest go.
Consider it pure joy
At the failure over winning
Embrace true victory
Its only the beginning

Diversity

Sharp or dull
Submissive defiant
Diversity is rarely silent
That awkward interruption
That you want to ignore
Its not an illusion
It illustrates more
The way I see you
Is your perception
Staring back at me
A bit of my ways
Mixed with yours
Plethora of ways
Pepper our days
Convenient to look away
Your ways are not my own
Ours can mesh
Or we will be alone.
There's a temptation to fight
When it doesn't feel right
We don't speak each others language
Everyone can dream
Everyone is searching
For the one thing
Humanity is like a magic trick
Its different than it seems
I am a blessing to your closed up fists
I am that ache deep within your pit
That beautifully curious
Being you want to know
Broken differently than you
We share the same truths
You may call me " them"
But i'll call you out
Labeling is not what its about
You have a soul and so do I
Lets walk together
And give it a try

Old soul

The world ie like a kaleidoscope
Colors twist and twirl
A beautiful cacophony of motion
Every word is a book
Every answer is a question
Every sense a sensation
Every sensation
A thousand more questions
The mind is never still
I thirst for knowledge like a desert
For an inkling of oasis
Answers are comfort
Questions are my feet
Dangling from thousand of stories
And stories are lullaby's
Lulling my manic psyche
From its zillions of questions
And worries and musings
I cry with kittens
Dream with children
Remember like a calendar
My mind is heavy
Like a thousand dictionary's
Witj blank pages
People are a mystery
A puzzle with missing pieces
My tears are a soup
Of confusion
And disillusions
Fears evaporate
But mine condense
I have a lot of answers
But rarely do they make sense
My spirit cannot rest
Because my questions put everyday life
To the ultimate test
The world is a roller coaster
I hold on tight
I hold onto faith
Its gonna be alright.

The sinful woman

The light
Shines into my life
Revealing whats right
And whats wrong about me
I with my pride
Nitpick whats inside
And thats the sin that I see
The words I said so long ago
The deadline I missed
Because I was slow
The impatient moment
With one of the kids
The moment when my judgemental words
Really hit
This is the sin that I see
A sinful woman,
Thats me.
I see the visible
I see the logic
But completely miss
What's hidden inside
Im not a fool
Not beyond resurrection
But the sin that hinders
This healing is- pride💕

Hallelujah anyway

The barn isn't full
Even the sparrow has flown away
My reserve is depleted
Hallelujah anyway
They've tried to break me
And most have succeeded
My hands are empty
Of all that I've needed
Hallelujah anyway
In the eye of the storm
And the end of the road
My capacity diminished
In pulling this load
Hallelujah anyway
They prefer i not be here
I prefer it as well
The promise of peace
Evaporated into hell
Hallelujah anyway
My reason for rejoicing
Ripped all apart
The security that used to reside in my heart
Is no longer part of my days
Hallelujah anyway
I don't praise the moments
Covered in peace
Don't rejoice for the ones
When i feel relief
I don't covet the ones
That cause me to pray
But they do so
Hallelujah
Anyway.

Firefly dance

Blink
And miss
Electric kiss
An evening gala
The crickets hiss
The tree frog croons
The navy sky
Ascends the sun
He reigns awhile
Sweet grass sways
In a sweaty breeze
Moth nearsighted
Flutter the trees
Soft owl feathers
Nestle sweet
Bats like twisted maniacs
Flitter in chaotic harmony.
The enchantment is futility
Blindess at its best
Til fireflies
Ignite the skies
Blessing weakened human eyes
To partake of this dance tonight.

When will the pumpkins come?

A child asked his elder
When will the pumpkins come?
The older one replied with a smile
With the debut of the autumn sun.

In a couple hundred wishes
Quite a many kisses
Snacks a plenty on cheesy goldfishes
Is when the pumpkins will come.

The weather is warm and weary
On sweet corn we dine
But soon enough their leaves will emerge
And then,  sweet child of mine

Days will fade much sooner
Much taller you will be
The harvest will happen
The very last one
Before the first freeze.

Pumkin pie cinnamon sweet
Will be upon our plate
But today is summer
The sun is still up
Though my love it is getting late.
The child yawned and the elder smiled
So aware of the changing season

The pumpkins will come soon enough
For now I'll savor warm breezes

Soon the winds will change
And new adventures will arrive
Pumpkins will come
The year will be done
But you will always be mine. 🎃

Adversities logic

Peace like a river
Underneath the soil
Roots run deep
Twist and turn
In the depths
As the sun burns
Hearts of emerald
Emerge like butterflies
Evidence for the eyes
That roots run deep
Dig like claws
Holding on, tenacious jaws
To nutrients, sweet below
The erratic earth
Insistent wind
Rain will come
Her tresses bend
Catching the sweet
Drops of life
Birthed of bitter
Chartreux skies
Claps of friction
Electric emission
Bullets pelt
Gentle leaves
Gusts of fury
Sigh and heave
Trunks hold tight
Roots run deep
My body torn
My soul to keep .
I shut my eyes
Curve fetally
Nature got the best of me
The beast did not see
The end of me
Look and see
My blooms are green
My branches branch
My trunk is taught
The storm is fierce
I waver not
Roots run deep
The storm will come
But me, I am
The lucky one.

Remnant

Beauty
Turns into ashes
Are the ashes beautiful?
Or is the beauty just ashes
A remnant of former things?
Who gave time....wings?
Memories fly away
Adorning the blue sky
I'm left with empty hands
Left wondering why.
Yesterdays laughter
Is the haunted silence of today
A chill in a moment
And the moment has its way.
Yesterdays sunshine
Is today's survival mode
Warm and surrounded
Becomes scared and alone.
What can I paint with ashes
What do I have to say
And if I do will anybody
Listen anyway?
Time has not expired
The end is not in sight
But everything is backwards
Will it ever be made right?
The panoramic quilt
That used to be my life
Is in a million pieces
And my visions become blind
Can holy Hands guide me
As I stitch this piece by piece
Will They create a picture
Thats beautiful for me
Broken just a remnant
All that I can do
Is wait pray and wonder
Depending all on You.

Permission

Permission

Permission has the word mission in it
Everybody seems to have a mission these days
The word Zen pops up in my mind
To describe myself
Though I rarely feel tranquil
The buzz of human traffic
All around me is a manic
Frantic reminder
That i gotta do something.
All I want to do is observe
Then write about it.
But I don't want a deadline
That's not selfish.
God did not stamp a deadline
On our birth certificate
Babies are pacified
But big humans are hurried by
I just want to look up at the sky
And count the clouds and wonder why
Experience the breeze
Postpone the degrees
Learn
One heartbeat at a time
Not standing in line
We are not the same
Your rhythm isn't meant
To coincide with mine
Life is not linear
The Creator created a horizon
If life were a parade
Id not continue it's charade
I love my neighbors
But we are not the same
We grow one moment at a time
Together,  yet perfectly disheveled
Time attempts to reduce us
To a humanistic level
All the while we
Climb our way back to the stars
The origin of galaxies
To discover who we are.

Juxtaposition

Falling
Failing
Flailing
Finding fault
Yet groping for hope
The anchor of my soul
The rope in my heart
Will not let go
It compares and contrasts
Neither will last
The very next moment
Will leave this one in the past
Joy plus sadness
Equals melancholy gladness
Hints of faith
In the wrestling
Restlessness in the nestling
Yin and yang
Right and wrong
Drowning in weakness
Triumphant in strength
The outcome can be
Any which way
The peace accents
The struggle and trial
The moment of waiting
Will set into motion
Miles and miles
Sweetness and sour
Kiss one another
Insignificance is a glorious brother.

Behold

1john 2:2

Trapped in my own perception
Blind aside from reason
Unbeknownst to me
My heart commits a treason
Encaptured by this world
Too small to understand
I become unglued
By the whispers of His hand
Transformed by revelation
Struck dead in my account
Undone by the million moments
I have done without
Earthly joys a fantasy
Compared to what awaits
The most impacting moments in this life
Pale at heaven's gate.

The Exchange

An open hand
Once unwilling to let go
Of the chains invisible
The chains so logical
Clenched fingers
Full of memories
Yields an empty heart
Void of.....everything
I exchange
Loneliness for company
Even needy greedy company
Dishevel my idea of perfection
Shame for freedom
A freezing cold expose on my reserve
Births unashamed existence
On the earth
Unveiling worth
Logic for surrender
The weakest part of me
Shrinking behind a metal safe
Safe and silent
Eerily quiet
Reason is a fickle friend
Blink and she is gone again
I embrace the essense of letting go
Logic defined, life says so
Judgment-  its a blanket
Covering my chaos
Accusing the rest of the world
Of being lesser
I embrace acceptance
At first a bitter pill
Sweeter by the moment
As I exercise my will
A bouquet of compensation
For the sweat I've shed
Gripping life like a rope
The knots inside my head
Slowly unravel
Peace emerges from inside
The exchange is wholeness
As i sacrifice my pride.

This poem is kind of personal and its. Also sort of written in the theme of Passover, I hope that whoever reads this and can resonate with it can also find resolution as well as healing.

Captive
Captivity
Free in reality
Yet still behind bars
Every moment
A flashback
No rainbow matters
When the promise is splattered
Im afraid to dance
When given the chance
Because every moment
Has the potential
To lock behind me
Again
And erase the progress
Still the present
Undo every victory
I refuse to declare
Freedom,  now
Because somehow
Im still a slave
That's still my name
Someone come and undo the shame
Tired of being the one to blame
I'm not a prisoner
I'm not a criminal
So why do I act
Like a frightened animal?
The risk is minimal
Still Im afraid to take
Another chance
This circumstance
Is keeping me awake
And aware
And I wish I didnt care
But every time I turn around
The demon is standing there
A reminder of before
A prophet of tomorrow
Joy is all around
Yet Im suffocating in sorrow
I saw freedoms splendor
Only a moment ago
Please help me differentiate
What I see and what I know.

The judgment of the Cross

The cross is tender
Rugged as it seems
Stripped away the Savior
Of all his hopes and dreams
The cross was brutal
Esposing humaness
As the savior suffered
I saw my sinfulness
The cross is honest
Exposing every fear
The cross is awkward
Showing that even God sheds tears
Some call it wonderful
Though Im afraid to touch
The nail scarred hands
Of One who sacrificed much
The cross is invasive
Dividing all my bones
The cross is a burden
That Jesus carried home
The cross is a demonstration
Of blood sweat and tears
That the Almighty bore
For the sin of all the years
It stands plain and sincere
As I look upon
The cross that was suffered
All my pride is gone
The cross is a vehicle
For the burden I hold close
The cross will carry it
Replacing it with hope
The cross carries judgement
But it is no longer mine
Death had judged Jesus
Freeing all mankind
Freedom that transcended
Boundaries,  space and time.

That was me

That was me
In every portrait
Of every moment
In my life
There were times
I was on top of the world
And others when I just
Couldn't get it right
That was me
Picking up my own pieces
Never truly free
Completely unaware
Of the One who rescued me
When I was trapped inside myself
Unable to see
The fire within
Attempting to overcome
My own poverty
That was me
A pawn in the battle
Of the demons in my mind
A product of whichever
Thought won out this time
A game of roulette

With no certainty
A feather in the wind
Helpless,  that was me.
I had hands to grasp the tools
The weapons deep inside
Wielded by the fire
Burning in my mind
The internal war continues
But I'm prepared this time
Equipped to face the battlefield
Deep within my mind
No longer an observer
Helpless and afraid
Aware that each moment
I am being remade
Not a helpless child
Not knowing where to turn
A spirit free and wild
Deep within I burn
I choose my destiny
And choose how I'll respond
Im the victor, not the victim
Today,  and from now on
I will face the challenges
Sure and unafraid
I was not made to be helpless
For Im aware that I've been made.

My fear hinders me
Your love carries me
My doubt limits me
Your grace abounds in me
My fear paralyzes me
Your promises sustain me
I am crushed by my iniquity
You were crushed for me
I am condemned by scrutiny
Your love sets me free.
I was a prisoner
You have rescued me
I was accused
You have ransomed me
I was lost and alone
You brought me into Your family!

The first color is red
Its poppies instead
Black seeds inside
Petals glide
Windblown chaos
Its orange like fire
Spread out its wings
Hot and furious
Consuming all things
Its a sunny day
The yellow portrays
Everything-  everything
Touched by its rays
The green is not
Trees or land
Instead its a snake
Leading a reptile band!
Turtles and dragons
Iguanas and monitors
Shaking the earth
With reptilian symphonica
Blues not the sky
Water its not
Blue is a void consuming a lot
Blue is my thoughts
Indigo and turquoise
Its also a whirlwind
Of internal noise
Purple is oceans
Consuming my sleep
Not oceans like water
Oceans of dreams
Where octopus swim
And horses parade
And no matter the scene
I'm not afraid
Miles chase miles
Of water and sand
Embraced by the rainbow
I lift up my hands
The universe I've created
Iw nothing like tame
Its up and its down
But I love it the same
Every color
I wear like a dress
Incredibly secure
When life is a mess
I'm its creator
It's creating me
Inside my rainbow
I am wild and free.

How the mind has been ambushed
Beginning with the fall
An ounce of deception
Has began it all

Thoughts are aligned neatly
Colors clean and bright
Have turned into disaster
In the souls darkest night

Tis an impossibility
For the mind to reconstruct
The aftermath of ambush
Dismembering our thoughts

Tearing apart reality
Replaced with manic thoughts
Then the wardrobe of our life
Looks nothing like it ought

Independently controlling
Though my hands have no place
Redeeming the catastrophe
Can best be done by grace

None can reassemble
Nor can it redefine
The beauty that existed
Once upon a time

Piece by piece daily
One teardrop at a time
Washed away the filth
Bathed in holy light

Healing takes place
When one begins to see
That the good fight has been fought
He has carried me.

I remember the song i sang
To you
Sometime you'll want to give up
And it will rain
And you'll find out how brave you are
When you least expect it
Not in the norm
But the storm.
When everything is pulled out from under you
You will see
What you're made of
And what you really need
And whose by your side
Those moments
The moments that undo your pride.
And you'll whisper that song to yourself
Take all your childhood books off of the shelf
Going back to a simpler place and time
Escape this world and live there awhile
Let the moments be a lullabye
Drowning out the many whys
Throwing questions to the skies.
I remember that song I sang to you
When you feel scared
Remember it too.

Faith can move mountains
Praise flows like fountains
But doubt can turn faith
Inside out

Like an earthquake
Makes your soul shake
And all that you know
Vanishes.....like so

I used to write praise
Prayer and confession
Now all I write is question after question
And I'm tired
Has my faith expired?

One by one my fingers are letting loose
Of all of the truth
I used to hold on to
Im letting go
Im losing control
I doubt everything
That I thought I used to know
It creeps into my being slow and steady like a cancer
Moment by moment
It steals every answer
I had before the doubt crept in
When i closed the door on doubtful sin
Now,  where do I begin?
The doorway of my soul
Opens to a wreck
Everything is torn apart
And I am scared to death
I shouted faith from the rooftop
Now I close my ears
And scream at doubt to STOP
I don't want to fight
Just take a bow its over now
Stay out of my life!
I want those moments
When im walking on air
I have a million questions
But I do not even care
Because every time I turn around
Jesus is there.
Now I feel like
He has disappeared
All that's left is an empty room
But it was empty
When they rolled away the tomb
He was nowhere to be found
Yet He was everywhere
When He ascended from the ground
He turned the world around
Turned the devil's tricks and plans upside down.
Though my doubts still beat like a drum
Inside my ears
I rise above fear
Because I know the One
Its a battle every day
And I take his hand
Feeling like a blind man
When I don't understand
I walk just as wounded as before
But step by step with Jesus
Im aspiring for more.
I follow His footsteps
With uncertain feet
Descending into battle
When doubt and faith will meet
There will be bloodshed
Faith ultimately will win
I know that tomorrow
I will go to war again.

The Earth is kissed with berries
Trees bathed in emerald attire
The sun, a paler yellow
Energy expired.
The insects are still buzzing
Deep within the brain
Hidden in this flake of white
Is a drop of rain!

Mother,  wears a costume
The Creator has adorned
Fitted with a fluttering flower
Hid by frosted morn.

Gentle,  like a daffodil
Hidden in a storm
Behind nature's torrent
Is soil,  deep and warm

White powder is a curtain
Her backdrop,  colors gay
Creator will soon pull the rope
Unveiling life. ..any day.

The storyteller is an orb
An aviary for her hair
Reaching limbs rise from her loins
Its residents perch there

The storyteller is an ocean
With tales deep below
She is a desert stark and covered
In eternal snow

She turns tales to the sun
Teeter totter to the moon
Up and down back and forth
Like some wisened loon

Maps in vain have failed
Telescopes have dug an inch
Of script upon script of imagination
Uncovering just an inch

The storytellers words are raindrops
Her refute thunderous resound
Her lessons porcupine quills
Her quizzes void of sound.

A gentle breath
A billowed sail
Upon a branch of ash
The season of upbringing
Seemed a little harsh
Winter's frost had bid farewell
Some few days ago
And blazen in my memory
Was the final snow

Still soldier like they pressed on
These pillows pink and white
What minions of determination
Fighting natures fight

Vernal like a messenger
Galloping the air
The tiny feathered flora
Established presence there.

Etched in sand. You gave me Everything

You gave me my name
Said you gave me everything
Everything I need.
The fire burning inside of me.
The blows to my frame
And my self esteem
To dismembering my emotions
Setting my life into motion.
You created me.
I could have been a monster
Filling your shoes with my feet
But I became a warrior
Yes, you created me.
Every disappointment
Every moment skipping town
You took away my normal
And turned my world around.
Security,  non existent
Safety,  just a dream
Yes you created me
And you gave me everything.
The sting of rejection
The blows of your rage
Filled the years of my life
They were the words on every page.
I was a child
Left on my own
And the kindest thing you ever did
Was leave me alone.
Years went by
I never changed my name
I reinvented its legacy
Destroyed all of its shame.
All the years polluted with fear
Beat inside my heart
Along with the regret
Of a family torn apart.
You created me
You were the provider
In your twisted fantasy
You created a disturber
When you raised me.
I upset the normal abnormality
That defined our lives
Took the dysfunction
That we all felt inside
Became a champion for justice
And I was justified.
My life had a purpose
Every painful year
Every mile of your jalopy
Every bitter tear.
Every breathless moment
Entertaining fear
Was the fuel of my fire
And that fuel never wains
You gave me everything
Everything I need for change.

Some people may be fortunate enough to be familiar with the 80s band Heart.  And their song What About Love?  For those who are not,  we are fortunate enough to have YouTube so you have the privilege of looking it up.  I find the music and lyrics inspiring.  And I was inspired to rewrite the lyrics Apologetix style, portraying Gods love for people. hes all about love. And He's all about you. And I was all about writing about it. Enjoy.

When you're lonely
And you're searching for truth
Tired of pretending
That it's all about you
The love He's sending
Will make its way to your heart.

You've been hiding, but life id out of control
And you're trying but feel like letting go
You're going down
And you wish theres a way you could stop
But don't think that He forgot!
Chorus
He's all about love
Understand He truly cares about you
Hes all about love
He won't let you slip away
Hes all about love
And more than willing to share it with you
Every day...
He won't tell you
How to feel inside
He won't sell you
What you don't want to buy
But if something's missing
Seek Him and you will find
Hes all about love

Chorus

The deconstructed rainbow 🌈

An artist painted a rainbow
Each color in its place
An arc of true perfection
A prism of grace.
Soon he took the paintbrush
The colors began to swirl
The redefining of his masterpiece
Intrigued a passing girl.
Sir it seems you've ruined
A picture perfect creation
The artist simply replied
Use your imagination
All the color is there
Though not in its original place
The girl nodded her head
Concern still on her face.
Is it still beautiful?
The artist questioned
I guess, the girl replied
Though further from perfection.
She looked a little closer
Saw the colors swirl around
Felt every wave
Of motion and sound
Each color represented
A moment in her life
Some sad and dark
Others happy and bright
Giving her the conclusion
That it was not a smooth ride
The rainbow illustrated
Good bad and in between
Each moment reflected
In the yellows reds and greens
Your lifes a work of art
S swirl and twirl of dreams
Nothings cut and dry
And rarely as it seems
Its sn optical illusion
Like a rainbow in the sky
Painting an image of hope
When theres no answer to the Whys
Some rainbows are linear
Some swirl and twirl around
Both images of hope
Where peace, not answers are found.