The Exchange

An open hand
Once unwilling to let go
Of the chains invisible
The chains so logical
Clenched fingers
Full of memories
Yields an empty heart
Void of.....everything
I exchange
Loneliness for company
Even needy greedy company
Dishevel my idea of perfection
Shame for freedom
A freezing cold expose on my reserve
Births unashamed existence
On the earth
Unveiling worth
Logic for surrender
The weakest part of me
Shrinking behind a metal safe
Safe and silent
Eerily quiet
Reason is a fickle friend
Blink and she is gone again
I embrace the essense of letting go
Logic defined, life says so
Judgment-  its a blanket
Covering my chaos
Accusing the rest of the world
Of being lesser
I embrace acceptance
At first a bitter pill
Sweeter by the moment
As I exercise my will
A bouquet of compensation
For the sweat I've shed
Gripping life like a rope
The knots inside my head
Slowly unravel
Peace emerges from inside
The exchange is wholeness
As i sacrifice my pride.