Sunday, April 23, 2017

The Exchange

An open hand
Once unwilling to let go
Of the chains invisible
The chains so logical
Clenched fingers
Full of memories
Yields an empty heart
Void of.....everything
I exchange
Loneliness for company
Even needy greedy company
Dishevel my idea of perfection
Shame for freedom
A freezing cold expose on my reserve
Births unashamed existence
On the earth
Unveiling worth
Logic for surrender
The weakest part of me
Shrinking behind a metal safe
Safe and silent
Eerily quiet
Reason is a fickle friend
Blink and she is gone again
I embrace the essense of letting go
Logic defined, life says so
Judgment-  its a blanket
Covering my chaos
Accusing the rest of the world
Of being lesser
I embrace acceptance
At first a bitter pill
Sweeter by the moment
As I exercise my will
A bouquet of compensation
For the sweat I've shed
Gripping life like a rope
The knots inside my head
Slowly unravel
Peace emerges from inside
The exchange is wholeness
As i sacrifice my pride.

Sunday, April 2, 2017

This poem is kind of personal and its. Also sort of written in the theme of Passover, I hope that whoever reads this and can resonate with it can also find resolution as well as healing.

Captive
Captivity
Free in reality
Yet still behind bars
Every moment
A flashback
No rainbow matters
When the promise is splattered
Im afraid to dance
When given the chance
Because every moment
Has the potential
To lock behind me
Again
And erase the progress
Still the present
Undo every victory
I refuse to declare
Freedom,  now
Because somehow
Im still a slave
That's still my name
Someone come and undo the shame
Tired of being the one to blame
I'm not a prisoner
I'm not a criminal
So why do I act
Like a frightened animal?
The risk is minimal
Still Im afraid to take
Another chance
This circumstance
Is keeping me awake
And aware
And I wish I didnt care
But every time I turn around
The demon is standing there
A reminder of before
A prophet of tomorrow
Joy is all around
Yet Im suffocating in sorrow
I saw freedoms splendor
Only a moment ago
Please help me differentiate
What I see and what I know.