I remember the song i sang
To you
Sometime you'll want to give up
And it will rain
And you'll find out how brave you are
When you least expect it
Not in the norm
But the storm.
When everything is pulled out from under you
You will see
What you're made of
And what you really need
And whose by your side
Those moments
The moments that undo your pride.
And you'll whisper that song to yourself
Take all your childhood books off of the shelf
Going back to a simpler place and time
Escape this world and live there awhile
Let the moments be a lullabye
Drowning out the many whys
Throwing questions to the skies.
I remember that song I sang to you
When you feel scared
Remember it too.

Faith can move mountains
Praise flows like fountains
But doubt can turn faith
Inside out

Like an earthquake
Makes your soul shake
And all that you know
Vanishes.....like so

I used to write praise
Prayer and confession
Now all I write is question after question
And I'm tired
Has my faith expired?

One by one my fingers are letting loose
Of all of the truth
I used to hold on to
Im letting go
Im losing control
I doubt everything
That I thought I used to know
It creeps into my being slow and steady like a cancer
Moment by moment
It steals every answer
I had before the doubt crept in
When i closed the door on doubtful sin
Now,  where do I begin?
The doorway of my soul
Opens to a wreck
Everything is torn apart
And I am scared to death
I shouted faith from the rooftop
Now I close my ears
And scream at doubt to STOP
I don't want to fight
Just take a bow its over now
Stay out of my life!
I want those moments
When im walking on air
I have a million questions
But I do not even care
Because every time I turn around
Jesus is there.
Now I feel like
He has disappeared
All that's left is an empty room
But it was empty
When they rolled away the tomb
He was nowhere to be found
Yet He was everywhere
When He ascended from the ground
He turned the world around
Turned the devil's tricks and plans upside down.
Though my doubts still beat like a drum
Inside my ears
I rise above fear
Because I know the One
Its a battle every day
And I take his hand
Feeling like a blind man
When I don't understand
I walk just as wounded as before
But step by step with Jesus
Im aspiring for more.
I follow His footsteps
With uncertain feet
Descending into battle
When doubt and faith will meet
There will be bloodshed
Faith ultimately will win
I know that tomorrow
I will go to war again.

The Earth is kissed with berries
Trees bathed in emerald attire
The sun, a paler yellow
Energy expired.
The insects are still buzzing
Deep within the brain
Hidden in this flake of white
Is a drop of rain!

Mother,  wears a costume
The Creator has adorned
Fitted with a fluttering flower
Hid by frosted morn.

Gentle,  like a daffodil
Hidden in a storm
Behind nature's torrent
Is soil,  deep and warm

White powder is a curtain
Her backdrop,  colors gay
Creator will soon pull the rope
Unveiling life. ..any day.

The storyteller is an orb
An aviary for her hair
Reaching limbs rise from her loins
Its residents perch there

The storyteller is an ocean
With tales deep below
She is a desert stark and covered
In eternal snow

She turns tales to the sun
Teeter totter to the moon
Up and down back and forth
Like some wisened loon

Maps in vain have failed
Telescopes have dug an inch
Of script upon script of imagination
Uncovering just an inch

The storytellers words are raindrops
Her refute thunderous resound
Her lessons porcupine quills
Her quizzes void of sound.

A gentle breath
A billowed sail
Upon a branch of ash
The season of upbringing
Seemed a little harsh
Winter's frost had bid farewell
Some few days ago
And blazen in my memory
Was the final snow

Still soldier like they pressed on
These pillows pink and white
What minions of determination
Fighting natures fight

Vernal like a messenger
Galloping the air
The tiny feathered flora
Established presence there.

Etched in sand. You gave me Everything

You gave me my name
Said you gave me everything
Everything I need.
The fire burning inside of me.
The blows to my frame
And my self esteem
To dismembering my emotions
Setting my life into motion.
You created me.
I could have been a monster
Filling your shoes with my feet
But I became a warrior
Yes, you created me.
Every disappointment
Every moment skipping town
You took away my normal
And turned my world around.
Security,  non existent
Safety,  just a dream
Yes you created me
And you gave me everything.
The sting of rejection
The blows of your rage
Filled the years of my life
They were the words on every page.
I was a child
Left on my own
And the kindest thing you ever did
Was leave me alone.
Years went by
I never changed my name
I reinvented its legacy
Destroyed all of its shame.
All the years polluted with fear
Beat inside my heart
Along with the regret
Of a family torn apart.
You created me
You were the provider
In your twisted fantasy
You created a disturber
When you raised me.
I upset the normal abnormality
That defined our lives
Took the dysfunction
That we all felt inside
Became a champion for justice
And I was justified.
My life had a purpose
Every painful year
Every mile of your jalopy
Every bitter tear.
Every breathless moment
Entertaining fear
Was the fuel of my fire
And that fuel never wains
You gave me everything
Everything I need for change.

Some people may be fortunate enough to be familiar with the 80s band Heart.  And their song What About Love?  For those who are not,  we are fortunate enough to have YouTube so you have the privilege of looking it up.  I find the music and lyrics inspiring.  And I was inspired to rewrite the lyrics Apologetix style, portraying Gods love for people. hes all about love. And He's all about you. And I was all about writing about it. Enjoy.

When you're lonely
And you're searching for truth
Tired of pretending
That it's all about you
The love He's sending
Will make its way to your heart.

You've been hiding, but life id out of control
And you're trying but feel like letting go
You're going down
And you wish theres a way you could stop
But don't think that He forgot!
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He's all about love
Understand He truly cares about you
Hes all about love
He won't let you slip away
Hes all about love
And more than willing to share it with you
Every day...
He won't tell you
How to feel inside
He won't sell you
What you don't want to buy
But if something's missing
Seek Him and you will find
Hes all about love

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