A cracked Vase

I am a casualty of war
The fight that is worth fighting for
The fight within, the fight to thrive
The fight to live the fight to survive.
In every journey there's one first place
A futile and exhausting race
To always try to be the best
Weary souls deserve to rest.
Every moment looking back
Is discovered that victory has earned a crack.
Worn and weathered from the wars
You're beautiful in spite of scars
At times we may come to believe
We're without cracks but you're decieved
Every vase that welcomes sun
Has been wounded by someone
Some cracks were part of us at birth
Woven into the tapestry of our worth
No vase is cracked exactly the same
Every life has its own name
We reflect the light in different ways
Full of growth and full of grace
Looking different than one another
Our cracks make us sisters and brothers.💚❤

We are all walking around
Broken vases
Cracked, leaking.
There are rote mundane, plain things about us.
Some extraordinary.
Hidden gems in the depths of us.
That cave very few can touch
Dark and light
At the same time.
We crack at different times
Under different measures of gravity.
Like carousel ponies
Some up some down
All rotating around
The same axis.
We display our paint differently
Each adorned by the skin creasing
Increments of time
Dotted by our paths
Wandering
Lost then found by our own eyes
Illuminated
In their own time.

Days of Awe

You left yesterday
The day after Yom Kippur
Was I a sin you are atoning for?
Just your guilty pleasure and nothing more?
Each day you are away
Is a White paper sheet
A cold and empty road
Waiting for my feet.
Maybe I'm attoning too
Settling for second best
So I'll start off again
My reserve all put to rest.
I am not alone
Not as alone as yesterday when i was under the delusion
Of your long played out charade.
Am I afraid of falling
So deep I make a  well?
I'm more afraid of staying
My soul drowning in a stagnant hell.
I've been alone forever
Even in your arms
I know you have your reasons
And do not mean me any harm.
I have my reasons also
And a path ahead of me
Today I Attone for staying
Today I set me free.