Finding Faith

I lost myself
When I was seventeen
Felt like an ogre
When all I wanted was to be seen
And maybe a queen
Fell in and out of love
And then back again
That moment
And the next
When confusion is your friend
Ping pong back and forth
Cannot make up my mind
I am falling falling falling
Now I am behind
Who am I defending
What I am standing for?
Who I am defending?
Can I handle anymore?
Black eye makeup spilling
Like a waterfall of shame
Is there a balm of healing
To swallow all my pain
Or will I let me feelings
Be victorious again?
I have so many questions
And a road before my eyes
Seeking from within me
Is where my answer lies.